in doubt

I didn't want to blog this. I have been genuinly hurt by it. I know that my skin is WAY to thin, that I judge myself by the way other see me. I know that in everyday, we are tested, I know that even though I seem tough, I am a fragile egg shell.... SO....Just when I am feeling fairly good about myself. There is always someone to set me straight. I am glad it came on Thanksgiving too, at the Thanksgiving table ... NOT.

I was told in not so many words that:

1. "helping raccoons was just wrong"

2. "would I help a homeless person if they came to our (WRC) door?"

3. "There are some many people in need...We were essentially taking food from the homeless"

4. "Where do we draw the line at caring for an animal.... you know the list, a cricket, fish, slug.... and so on.

It is hard even for me to blog about this. I guess I just have things a bit wrong. I don't know. I think that God wants me take care of all his creatures. To love animals as well as humans. I feel each life is given by God. I don't know. I just don't know. What does someone say to those questions. I just said nothing. You know those out of body experiences?? When you can see yourself? I just looked sad. They just can't see how much they cut me down when I am with them.

Sorry for such a bummer of a blog. Just feel kind of sad today!
K~

Happy Thanksgiving

What did I learn last night?? That Blood Feathers are aptly named. A swan broke a blood feather last night, and blood was everywhere. It looked like a TV murder scene. I had to hose off the walls and the floors. I had to try and help the vet tech wrangle 1 huge swan while the other 2 ran around too. Meanwhile, circle over head in this ruckus was a small Bonaparte gull. It was quite a spectacle. Bonaparte gull

There were some other cool birds there last night. One being a Wood Duck.

And our friend Turkey, which I found out was a girl turkey, was out stealing other patients food, while she waited for hers to be prepared. I gave her some cranberries. I thought it fitting. I even said "oh, i get to clean the turkey for Thanksgiving." Har Har Har.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

K~

Lovin' Owly

Every now and again, the kids run across something wholesome. This is one of those times. Owly is a very cute owl with a worm friend created by Andy Runton. They teach good lessons and are kind little stories. I am excited to add them to our Christmas list this year. K~

The Need to Knead!

I am not sure what it is, but I have been into major baking and cooking as of late. I absolutely LOVE to make home made bread. It has been about 8 years since I have kneaded bread! It felt so good. I felt creative! I think it is our economy. We are trying to get the kids to eat better and save money at the same time. That is not an easy task. I finally, however, made wheat bread that the kids like and I have made a total of 4 loaves. 1 eaten, 1 ready to eat, and 2 frozen YEAH! I have also make Berry Waffles and am still making the pumpkin chocolate chip waffles. I have become a pro at crock pot roast and chicken and now will be moving on to other things soon. I am doing nothing exotic, but, it feels good to provide the best I can. K~

Who does depression hurt?...Everyone.

There was a juvenile swan that was in for a lacerated bill and depression. He seemed a bit agitated and really seemed to enjoy following me, or was he chasing me? around his pool.There was also a turkey that looked very sad. He got into some lead pipe and ate some. He was molting and looking a bit rough. sad.

Then there was the baby big brown bat. It, we feared, was dead. But alas, it was just laying on its blanket motionless. He too looked down.

I know I tend to personify the patients at the WRC. It, I suppose, does not help that I always refer to them as "people". It is so easy for me to look at them and feel their anxiety, sadness, pain. They must be so scared. I am glad for just a moment, I can hum an annoying tune to keep their minds off things. K~

Lap afghan

Yes. I did decide to keep this a lap afghan. I am really liking it this size. I think I am going to challenge myself to do a "planned" afghan soon. I am going to start my Babette Blanket after Thanksgiving I think. Anywho....... I am working on a ton of stuff and find myself a bit overwhelmed these days. K~

Interesting

I have been searching for an art term for my stitching pieces. I have been at this, cerebrally for some time now. This evening, I decided to do some research. As far as I can tell my stitching art falls under the category of Expressionism. In reading about Expressionism, I found some words interesting and here is what I came up with.

Expressionism is the tendency of an artist to distort reality for an emotional effect; it is a subjective art form. Expressionism is exhibited in many art forms. The term often implies emotional angst. The term is applied mainly to 20th century works.

Angst is a German word for fear or anxiety. It is used in English to describe an intense feeling of strife. The term Angst distinguishes itself from the word Furcht (German for "fear") in that Furcht usually refers to a material threat (arranged fear), while Angst is usually a non directional emotion.
It is pre-cognate with the Latin angustia, "tensity, tightness" and angor, "choking, clogging"; compare to the Greek "άγχος" (ankhos): stress.

Anxiety is a physiological and psychological state characterized by cognitive, somatic,emotional, and behavioral components. These components combine to create the painful feelings that are typically recognized as uneasiness, apprehension, or worry. Anxiety is a normal reaction to stress. It may help a person to deal with a difficult situation, for example at work or at school, by prompting one to cope with it. When anxiety becomes excessive, it may fall under the classification of an anxiety disorder. Anxiety generally occurs without an identifiable triggering stimulus. As such, it is distinguished from fear, which occurs in the presence of an external threat. Additionally, fear is related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, whereas anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable.

Wikipedia-

The above piece is: "4 seasons 2" bookmark. K~

spoiled!

I had a GREAT long weekend. I came home relaxed and spoiled! Bob got me this cute bag with a needle holder to match...Love it! Also She got me this absolutely adorable and squishy felted turtle! I can't even tell you how much I adore this guy. The kids are quite fond to. THANKS!!
Kristie gave me a gift card to one of my favorite stores! I was able to shop and get some pretty nice things. Thanks Kirstie. The bear hat was my pleasure to make!

It seems like a dream that I was away and LAZY! The food was out of this world. Bob is a great cook and host. I am also missing Blaze and Nagase. Keep me up to date Phillip. I realized later on my drive home that I never even too photos of my favorite people!

Back to the craziness, but I'm happy! K~

Time to relax

Work was so short last week and this week. All the critters are getting better and being released. Just in time to hunker down for the winter. We have a blue bird in there tonight. It looked a little scared. I felt bad for it. I also took care of my Herring Gull friend and of course the turtles!

Well I am going to South Dakota tomorrow. I am too excited. It is going to be a relaxing time. K~

It's better for you!

Pumpkin Chocolate chip Waffles!! Thanks Bob. I finally got these into my kids! I am feeding my kids vegetables for breakfast!! YEAH! K~

Stitching like a crazy gal.

Beetle bug and rose bush
left over 3

These 2 were kind of fun to do. The top one, beetle bug and rose bush is inspired by a beetle bug car I would see on my way to the kids school. It was one of the old fashioned kind. There was a beautiful red rose bush in front of it. I just loved looking at the colors.

The left over 3 was fun to do, except it should really be called random 1. I have 2 other that are similar to this technique and think it should stay in the same category. I have another idea the sprang from this, and I am excited to get started. But first, I need to do another 4 seasons idea. This time in a bookmark format. GEEE that was kind of boring. Oh well. K~

Bing's 2 :-)

Happy Birthday Bing Bong!! K~

It's nice to be needed

I think I am becoming the reptile lady at work. I often get "selected" to clean the snake and frog that we have. I always clean the snapping turtles.

I kind of like it. K~

garter snake
grey tree frog

Where did our mother go?

Crock pot roast.....Beef, potatoes, sweet potatoes, carrots, onions.

Bread...from scratch.

Apple Pie...from scratch
Usually it is something frozen on my pizza stone.

I guess it's fall. I like to get baking in the fall. k~

Worst car in the lot!

I wouldn't say that I am a very proud person. I am also not very vane or materialistic. There comes a time, however, when a person realizes that they truly, literally, with out a doubt, by far, have the worst car in the lot. I had to be in 3 not so nice neighborhoods as of late, driving the Camry. My car.... the worst on/in each and every road, parking ramp, and lot.

The other night, I had the Camry. It was the only car I could drive. I parked down the block to "hide" this piece, so no one could see it, then proceeded to leave the lights on. At the show, some neighbor called to see if anyone at the party had a red car!! When I was driving home from the show, the car started to smoke.....BADLY. At a particularly long light, I looked like I was in a Cheech and Chong car. It was totally in smoke. The car in front of me was pulling forward, the girl next to me was large eyed and panicked and pointing. Me....just sitting there trying to shrink in my seat like Fred Flintstone.

I know God is reminding me that I need not become vane at this time. That I need to be grateful. Well, I am. I actually am. Just a bit embarrassed, but I'll get over it. K~