Friday, August 12, 2011

learning to be me

Well It has been a full summer. Most of it has been cleaning and more cleaning. Scrubbing and organizing. I have worked at so much that my poor arms have taken a bitter toll. Every day I ice my shoulders and my elbows. I muddle through with my numb finger tips. I can hardly hold a book for the pain. Crocheting and needle work is a precious few minutes a day. However, through it all, I am working harder on accepting me. I have been struggling with my home. It is small and full. Full of life and clutter. I think of what it would be if I didn't have all my family or all my animal companions and it just makes me sad. I feel that I have been torn in two for far too long. I am embarking on the journey of stitching those two halves together. The one half is my longing to be a "normal" homemaker - clean, organized, motherly, prepared and the other half is Children, animals, collections of little things, and having a "Yes" house.

That said...My mom and dad are coming on Sunday to stay here for 2 weeks. It will be a house with 7 people, 2 dogs, 1 cat, 1 bunny, 1 gerbil, 1 snake, 1 lizard, 12 turtles, and several fish. I hope my nerves with hold out that long.



bobbione8y said...

i am thinking of you!

i hope the 2 weeks is good :)

K~ said...

Well I was a crazy mess last night, and that was 24 hours!!! I am going to be nuts for sure. K~

bobbione8y said...

oh no.

i am here, why don't you sneak out to the deck and call me sometime.

or better yet, tell everyone you are leaving and come see me ;)