Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Day 16

Well it is late on day 16 of my Chronic Pain Program.  It seems like a short trip and a long journey all at the same time.

Things I've learned:

It's all about the CORE... Tuck in your belly!  I can get physically stronger even with chronic pain! I rocked at my discharge life test... OH YEAH!

That I was blessed with 3 of the BEST people to be teamed up with.  These 3 people laughed and cried right along with me.  We shared really hard days and really good moments.  We hug and we care. I am truly blessed.  And here is what is really special, I don't feel like it's over on Friday.  I feel like it's a kick start.  I know I will see my dear team mates.  We will be at our life long support group 2 times a month.  We miss each other even for 1/2 a day.

Oh here's another thing, I cry A LOT and on a dime!! It's odd. I hear that it is common when healing from great pain (even physical pain).  I don't like to cry in front of people.  It's become so common at CPP that by now I am sure they don't believe me any more.

Things I am hoping to embrace a bit more:

My brain fog:  I really have no concentration.  I don't know what's going on most of the time.  My hearing doesn't help. I can't hear things and what I do "hear" it's not right. SO, I am just going to be the "crazy old lady" and embrace that lady.

Chronic Pain for me, is not 24/7 and for that, I am grateful.  It is often.  It is frequent. But it is NOT every minute of everyday.  So I am very thankful and I need to embrace me when I am well too.

I need to try to see myself as a likable person.  I have been given some ideas. I am going to try a couple and see if I can see what others say they see.  Too often I am told how obnoxious and annoying I am.  I am going to really work on this.

So... Thursday and Friday.

1 comment:

Kreestahl said...

The fibro fog is sooo frustrating. Are you telling yourself you are annoying and obnoxious, cuz you are not! And if someone else is saying it, just let me talk to them!