Well it is late on day 16 of my Chronic Pain Program. It seems like a short trip and a long journey all at the same time.
Things I've learned:
It's all about the CORE... Tuck in your belly! I can get physically stronger even with chronic pain! I rocked at my discharge life test... OH YEAH!
That I was blessed with 3 of the BEST people to be teamed up with. These 3 people laughed and cried right along with me. We shared really hard days and really good moments. We hug and we care. I am truly blessed. And here is what is really special, I don't feel like it's over on Friday. I feel like it's a kick start. I know I will see my dear team mates. We will be at our life long support group 2 times a month. We miss each other even for 1/2 a day.
Oh here's another thing, I cry A LOT and on a dime!! It's odd. I hear that it is common when healing from great pain (even physical pain). I don't like to cry in front of people. It's become so common at CPP that by now I am sure they don't believe me any more.
Things I am hoping to embrace a bit more:
My brain fog: I really have no concentration. I don't know what's going on most of the time. My hearing doesn't help. I can't hear things and what I do "hear" it's not right. SO, I am just going to be the "crazy old lady" and embrace that lady.
Chronic Pain for me, is not 24/7 and for that, I am grateful. It is often. It is frequent. But it is NOT every minute of everyday. So I am very thankful and I need to embrace me when I am well too.
I need to try to see myself as a likable person. I have been given some ideas. I am going to try a couple and see if I can see what others say they see. Too often I am told how obnoxious and annoying I am. I am going to really work on this.
So... Thursday and Friday.