Wednesday, February 06, 2013
One Day At A Time
Starting this journey, I never thought it was going to be easy. As a matter of fact, I thought it was going to be harder than it has been.
Time marches on. No matter how we try it will keep going. I would like to experience some of it. When I worry, I am some where else. I am a sea, drifting in thought. I don't fully experience conversation, entertainment, relaxation, etc.
I am a novice at this. With all things, sadly there are good and bad. Taking one day at a time does not mean one can ignore what is coming up or what has gone on in the past. For me, it just means that for that day, I need to deal with it the best I can for that day. I still need to plan. I still need to rethink what has gone on. I still need look forward to events upcoming.
For me, I struggle most with guilt. Guilt is huge for me. I feel lazy. Sitting in my chair "resting" I feel useless. I know I need to do this. If I don't, I am no good for the rest of the day, evening, or possibly the following day or week. But still, I feel I should do more, could do more.
I keep to my plan. I keep to one day at a time. I rejoice in the days I am given with out a lot of pain or fatigue. There are many. That makes me happy. I work through the days with pain, like today, as best I can. They are there. Quite often. But since I don't know how long they will be around I just keep going.
One day at a time.