This one is my fault but it is too big for me

One of my kids just told me they don't believe in God.

I have only myself to blame. I am so sad and so not cut out to raise children. I tell ya. After seeing the Dead Sea scroll this morning. I was feeling a bit more renewed in my pursuit to get the family back to church on a regular basis(if at all). Then this bombshell.

I don't even need to ask what I need to do.

Please join me in prayer for my family. Thank you. K~

I'll tell ya what hurts

I didn't get bitten, I didn't get scratched, but for the second time, I had my finger caught between its extremely strong tail and the spike on the back of its top shell. All I have to show for my incident is a small dot on the top of my finger by my knuckle. But when you touch it, it really hurts. Usually you don't want to pick snapping turtles up by their tail. It is harmful for them. but at work, most of the turtles have shell injuries, making it too harmful and painful for them to be picked up "properly"so we need to grab them by the tail and put are other hand under them to lift them out of the container. Needless to say they don't like this. K~

A conundrum wrapped in a question filled with a query...

Ok, so hears the deal.... I can't be around dust or my asthma goes nuts. So if I don't dust, it gets too dusty, and I am surrounded by dust, if I dust then I am surrounded by dust.

I can't be around fall leaves or my asthma goes crazy so do I leave them or do I rake them. I just tried to simply sweep the sidewalk and now I sense the deep wheezing set in. so.... there you go. My answer is a hazmet suit. K~

tree house

Rick and David working hard on the tree house.

Will it be done by winter?

I don't know.

But it is really cute. K~

Finally done

It took awhile, but I finally finished the "Bison in the Badlands". K~

A lighter side of self discovery

I woke up this morning and the first thing I thought was "I am Fred Flintstone". Let us do the run down shall we.

1. I wear the same thing everyday

2. I always goes barefoot

3. We are not going to mention my size... but....

4. I shrink when ashamed

5. I let the cat out every night

6. I like to nap

I think 6 distinct similarities is enough to prove my point.

so.... my quote for the day is, of course, "Yabba Dabba Doo!" K~

hats

Hat for big brother Darby.

Hat for new born baby Finn.

K~

Not Sleeping

It has been only 4 days since I resigned from Site Council. I am sad that the principal never contacted me after I sent the email resignation. She just put out an email to the council, not sending it to me, and moved on. I guess, it was a cowardly way out, but after all, it was a volunteer position. I was a voting member of Site Council for about 4 years (a long time) I have been going for over 9 years. I guess when you make a decision to quit. You need to be ready for it to be ALL over. But I guess I feel ashamed about it. I have to remind myself that crying after meetings, one of which I volunteer my time, is not healthy for me. It is not a place someone should spend their time. I see people move on from things, and they well, move on, or so it seems. Me?? I am not a mover oner. I think I am sometimes, I want to think I am, but I'm not.

Sleeping has been so hard for me. Well before summer started. Now it is October, and I am still not sleeping. I am tense and a bit of a mess.

I need to take baby steps and learn that everyone, including me, deserves to feel useful and heard. Maybe someday, I will find a place where that is the case.

Being 43 and having no direction is not a fun place to be. I just seem to long to be valued. I am smart sometimes. I have something to offer. I know I do. Don't I??

Maybe I don't. Maybe I am just stupid. Maybe it is safer for me to stay home. Bad things happen when I go "outside" of my house. I don't feel comfortable anymore. Frankly, I have felt this way for years now. After so much time trying to fill the void, I think I need to just except the fact that I have nothing directly to give to others. I am just dopy old me. plodding along. what a doof. I think after 30+ years of "mis-steps" I should at the very least be able to embrace that fact.

I wish that I felt like a high schooler looking for attention and saying things to get it. But alas, I actually know it is who I am and it makes me sad and frustrated.

Just sayin' K~

I'm exhausted and discouraged today

It seems the more I try and work with Site Council, the worse it gets and the more upset I become. I am a 43 year old woman for cornsake!!!!! I have decided to "piss AND get off the pot" It is what I always say about the group..."why don't we piss or get off the pot" well.... I am now finished and am removing myself. If you read this, send me warm thoughts today. It is going to be a tough one. K~

Love these

Ok, not a huge shoe shopper. But I LOVE these shoes. I want them really bad. Not gonna do it, but I can look right?? They are $96 on Sale!! That is about 10 times more than I can spend on shoes. But wow are these cute! K~

crafting

Still Crafting. This is a yarn pull container I made on the trip. It took hours. I have to finish the clasp. I have not used it but I hope it is helpful.

I have to volunteer in some way at TCA, Coras new school. I am going to put a Yarn class syllabus together and present it. I hope it flies, because, I would not like to do office work for free.

K~

The new school year

Heading out for the new school year. C, D & S started their new school year. It is hard to believe that C has been going since the 1st and the boys since the 7th. I am still behind on life, but am slowly catching up. Ironing the mans clothes today. Washing and putting away all the other clothes. Creating baby gifts for a baby born in late August. K~

In my own little bubble

I had lunch with some terrific girls yesterday.

You know who you are Bobbi, Kristi and Cassie :-)

I really felt honored to be invited to the pow wow at the French Meadow.

Thanks girls.

In thinking about the day, I find that I really do enjoy others company. But I always find myself in my own little bubble of home. I don't even go outside much anymore.

Sure, what I say is very true.

I HATE the mosquitoes. They find me anytime, any place, no matter who I am with.

I get super nervous talking to people. I am always sure they don't like me much. (odd, but true)

I do like it inside, but more and more, I like editing my communication.

Kristi was wearing a back space key on a cute necklace she made at the junk bazaar. It really wrapped up my communication style. I have for quite some time, loved being able to use spell check, back space, cut and paste functions. When your "out there" it of course is not possible to do that. Then, I just look dumb.

Just a thought for the day.

K~

money

There comes a time when a person just needs to make money. I have been WELL past that time. I have decided to try ETSY again, but, we know how hard it is to sell on that. I am still looking for J..O..B. Not super easy with all we have going on. But, I know it has to be possible. K~

Where am I??

What just happened. I feel like I am in a weird fog. I have been doing domestic stuff for the past day and a half. I have just been wondering if I will ever remember our "vacation" or this summer in general. Sheesh!! This is a black bear we saw. Cora got this shot with her camera. Nice job! K~

The Renaissance Festival

Fun day at the Renaissance Festival. Full day of dressing up and eating food.

It ended with a beautiful sunset. K~

Labor day

Made Puff this cowboy hat on the trip. Then I realized he didn't have "a top of a head" He was about as happy as the photo shows, to wear it.
Moonscape over somewhere in Montana

Glacier view

I am hanging in there. I have had a very crazy busy few months. I feel a bit pulled in many directions. Kind of like taffy. I am ready to be taken off the puller and put in a nice plain wrapper and settle into a round glob.

Renaissance yesterday. 7 hours! I am a bit tired. Pictures to come later.

Mom and Dad are still here and will be until at least the 13th. Cora started a new school (Twin Cities Academy) on Wednesday. The boys start tomorrow. I have been up at 655 AM every morning, making coffee, setting the breakfast table for my mom and dad, doing dishes, clothes, cleaning up, etc.

Puff is doing fine. He is taking water and baby food sweet potatoes just fine by syringe. Today he gets to try his super worms.

Enough for now. Enjoy the pics. K~

Puff has surgery

Well Little Old Puff had to have tail surgery today. I picked him up about 7:30 PM. He had some trauma to his tail and it was dying on the end. He needed it amputated to protect it from going up his tail to his legs or spine. He is resting in 85 degree temps on his towel. Tomorrow, I need to give him his pain meds and antibiotics. He is so adorable. I hope he gets better soon. K~

Why I keep coming back

After seeing Glacier and the Tetons, I still longed for the Badlands, Black Hills, and Yellowstone. The landscape warms me so. The colors, the animals. the atmosphere. I just get happy when I see the edge of the badlands. I had a great trip. Still hate the camping, but the hotels were so seedy, that by the end of the trip, I preferred toughing it out in the tent with the bears and bison. K~

Function over Beauty

So, Rick was on his way out somewhere in the evening. He had been busy outside for a few hours prior. He said to me on his way to the gate, "Hey, do you want to see what I made?" I went out and looked in my garden to find this monstrosity sitting there!!! It is a hand made (as if you can't tell) pool heater. I was rendered speechless and just shook my head. After I rescued my "Kiss me over the garden gate" I just proceeded to take a picture. Why do I even bother!

On the flip side, Bobbi got me these lovely organizing pieces for my Birthday! Thanks Bob! They are so pretty, and will make the ugly mundane paperwork items look so much more beautiful. Guess Rick and Bobbi are not cut from the same cloth. Both items are functional, true, but well they don't seem to look the same. K~